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Monstrous Existence

by Everson Poe

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1.
Belial 13:26
O, lord of lies I ate the fruit O, lord of death I fear no end “Sons of worthlessness Sons of wicked men Sons of emptiness Plagues of every land Sons of lawlessness Never shall they rise Left hand of darkness Anointed by the fire” O, Belial Lay out your nets O, great corrupter Please let me rest “Fornication will destroy the hearts of all Sons of the law of one pollute the sanctum’s heart The noise of riots in the palaces and courts Thou bloody man, come out, you watcher in the dark” O, Belial Lay out your nets O, great corrupter Please let me rest O, Belial I’ll serve you well O, ruler of the pit Take me to hell “Into the house of god Sons of the plague arrive Filled with lust and violence They to vice subside Bring the sleeping prophet Blush of evil’s pride Blooming in her bosom Shall be exorcised” Six hundred sixty six angels Fallen from grace, at your side Hollow your tongue and your promise Insatiable your appetite “Into the house of god Sons of the plague arrive Filled with lust and violence They to vice subside Bring the sleeping prophet Blush of evil’s pride Blooming in her bosom Shall be exorcised” Six hundred sixty six angels Fallen from grace, at your side Hollow your tongue and your promise Insatiable your appetite Six hundred sixty six angels Deep in the pit they reside Servants all bound in their essence Cursed by god’s own pride “Save me from the darkness Save me from his grasp Save me from Belial This is all I ask” Your prayers are worthless Your god is a lie “Save me from the darkness Save me from his grasp Save me from Belial This is all I ask” Your prayers are worthless Your god is a lie You are not worthy Revered on high
2.
Her pallor is sickly She must be an agent of madness I watch as she floats through the halls of my home Her eyes are unseeing She must be a guest of the old ones In her I see the Yellow King Carcosa waits for the few The sky is filled with too many stars Our universe torn in two Opened like an ancient scar Remove the stranger's pallid mask Disguised as anguish, lacking grace Along the shore, the cloud waves break And black stars rise in lost Carcosa Indeed, it's time We've lain aside Die thou unsung The shadows lengthen in Carcosa Hastur the great in tattered robes Not of this earth, the twin suns rose Cassilda's song will echo on The Yellow King comes to a close
3.
I am too weak to ask for what I need I am too weak to cross this threshold alone I am too weak to ask for what I need I am too weak to take hold We might catch fire My lantern filled We might catch fire The oil spills My belly will never be full No matter how much i consume My form will never be a vessel Unfit to house even my heart We might catch fire My lantern filled We might catch fire The oil spills I dance for the pleasure Of the surrounding hordes I am too weak to ask for what I need I am too weak to cross this threshold alone I am too weak to ask for what I need I am too weak to take hold I want to create life not pain All of this guilt building up til i burst Coming out sideways in fits and in spurts Never to have what i truly desire I am too weak to take hold I want to create life not pain
4.
It's coming for me now Its song is like a lighthouse Whispering so sweet It leads me while I slumber O, Ibon, hear my call I hold Adina's lantern Turn my back to the stars Monstrous existence Is this a waking dream? The pattern finders Reaching toward the beast Swimming further out to sea Moving toward the blind and terrible things Walking deep into the woods And the winter lasts forever You will die tonight Never knowing what is real You will die tonight Where we begin and end I want to hope again I want to feel the pain of losing So little time before I end I never thought I'd feel so empty It's coming for me now Its song is like a lighthouse Whispering so sweet It leads me while I slumber O, Ibon, hear my call I hold Adina's lantern Turn my back to the stars Why do I believe in nothing Why do I feel no remorse? Thus begins my journey onward No horizon on my course And my feet will leave no footprints As my life has left no mark Lantern's light will burn forever Staving off the coming dark Saint Luven's stars Led me to here And Ibon's song Removes my fear I never rest I never end Into the pit I will descend

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Everson Poe is a one-person project from Chicago, IL. Mae Shults—along with a plethora of guest vocalists—has been releasing music as Everson Poe for over 10 years. As a queer & genderqueer individual, they incorporate themes of gender identity and mental health into nearly all of their songs, filtered through lenses inspired by various forms of pop culture, or simply their own imaginative storytelling. Though never bothering to be constrained by genre, the majority of Everson Poe’s releases for the last few years have mostly contained elements of black-, doom-, and sludge-metal. Their new album, Monstrous Existence, is their most political and their most personal. Reaching inward, as always, toward their struggles with gender and depression, they have also reached outward to touch on the socio-political issues in dealing with a world that still seems largely unwilling to accept the differences among its people. Mixing elements of ethereal beauty and intense anger, Monstrous Existence further solidifies Everson Poe as a voice that deserves to be heard.

FFO: Thou, Oathbreaker, Amenra, Un, Kowloon Walled City, Mizmor, Vile Creature

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released May 22, 2020

Written, performed, produced, recorded, & mixed by Mae Shults at Hell’s Half Acre Studio, Chicago, Winter 2019-Spring 2020
Singing vocals on III & IV by Modaff
Cover photo by Ellie Lane

Thanks: Em, Ellie, Dan @ Trepanation, Sarah Allen Reed / TFAN Radio, Meg / Sludgework, Order Of The Wolf / Hope vs. Hate Records, Sarah, Nina, Justine, Erik, Matt & Eric, and Mom & Dad

C&P Everson Poe 2020
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Everson Poe Chicago, Illinois

Everson Poe is Mae Shults: a trans, queer, multi-instrumentalist from Chicago. Often in collaboration with various vocalists, she balances elements from many diverse genres while maintaining the goal of merging beauty with loudness. She has been releasing music for over a decade, and has been signed to Trepanation Recordings since 2020.

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